I don’t like Christmas Day very much.
There, I’ve said it and feel a bit like a heretic. Not sure why I’m telling you this, this year. It was not an easy day so I suppose I thought I’d try to work it out for myself by sharing it with you Dear Reader. I don’t know when I stopped liking it because I have fond memories as a child of the day. I think it is the expectation that gets to me.
We always plan everything (you’d expect it wouldn’t you with a hubby who has OCD) and sometimes I think we plan the joy out of it. Nothing is left to chance which is good in one way when so much seems to have to happen within a short time particularly in the kitchen. However, it can almost feel like déjà vue after a while.
The responsibility that it will be a wonderful day,that the food will be delicious and the world will be at one can lay very heavy. For me, I find it really hard to meet those perceived demands so I’m tense and nervous and try too hard and my head aches. Apparently, I’m still reasonable company but it does feel like such an effort.
Don’t get me wrong; I love the build up to the day and the ‘cold meat and pickles days’ afterwards but it is just those 24 hours. Perhaps it is different if there are a number of you or if you have little ones around. However, I’m sure that can cause as many problems though.
Then there are the questions after the event. ‘Did you have a good Christmas?’ It feels quite lame to say no not really when you haven’t been ill or can’t recount the thing that spoilt it.
I think there is an element in our house where ‘tradition’ gets in the way. We’ve always had those decorations / meat / timetable. So, I think I shall try to do things differently next year. I shall start to prepare hubby for less of a military campaign and more of just a break in routine.
Pass me that note pad – I need to make a list!!Post Script – I do know how lucky we are to have each other and feel for those who were on their own. I do also realise that it is not all about sprouts and presents. This post is just my reflection of how I need to refocus. This post is for Jenny Matlock’s Seasonal Roundup. Pop over to see what the others have to say!